|Saturday, March 2nd, 2002|
Yesterday was a really good day. I mean school sucked, but school always sucks. After class we all played snow football for a couple hours. It was so much fun... It was so damn cold. Then we all went to Old Chicago for some pizza. Finally we went over to my friend Peter's house and hung out for the rest of the night. The problem is now I'm really sore. My whole body is in severe pain. And now I get to spend the rest of the weekend working on my lab. Current Mood: sore
|Tuesday, February 26th, 2002|
It's pretty damn cool seeing people on national television that you've actually met and talked to, especially when they kick ass like Something Corporate does. In other cool news, I learned how to play Teenage Riot by the Ataris today.
Hell yeah! Something Corporate is gonna be on Craig Kilborn in a few minutes!!
|Monday, February 25th, 2002|
I usually do my homework with three of my friends. Today I was having a bad day and so was my friend Katie. We were both rather pissy and at each others throats all day. I got tired of dealing with it and finally left. These confrontations are becoming more and more frequent and I'm kinda worried since we're gonna be in the same senior projects group all next year.
Yesterday I spent all sorts of money ordering more stickers and pins for my bass. I also got some more T-shirts that I don't need. I'm getting pretty depressed about school and my life. I'm tired of working my ass off just to do the same the next week and the next week. I really need a girlfriend I can be with and forget about school. This weekend I applied for a bunch of internships. I would like to work at this rocket company called Thiokol, but it's in northern Utah (not ideal). I would really like to end up in California. Current Mood: annoyed
|Tuesday, February 19th, 2002|
School is such a pain in the ass. I had a huge lab due today. I've spent the last two weeks working on it. It feels good to have it done. Now it's time to start on the next lab, and the homework, and some other homework, and study for the test, and get my resume together. It just never stops. I hate stress. Current Mood: accomplished
|Friday, February 15th, 2002|
I had a lot of fun last night working on my circuits lab, while everyone else in the house was out with a girl. Derek's girlfriend came over while he wasn't here and littered his room with flowers and candy. Have I mentioned I hate Valentine's Day?
Today I got to be in charge of the freshman projects class. It was a lot of fun. I get to be the "cool" TA since the other guy is fucking weird. I feel all smart and powerful cause I get to teach them all sorts of stuff. Current Mood: blank
|Thursday, February 14th, 2002|
I'm so sick of it all. I can't stand girls. I will never find a girlfriend. Things are going well with Carmen, but I'm not gonna fool myself into thinking this is going to turn into a good relationship. In fact I'm doing everything I can to keep it from happening. It would just be nice to find a girl I WANT to go out with that by some miracle likes me too. This is always the most depressing time of the year. I really want an internship in California for the summer. Current Mood: angry
|Tuesday, February 12th, 2002|
I'm in such a bad mood today. There really isn't much reason for it. One thing I'm disappointed about is that the trip to California we had planned over spring break probably isn't going to happen. I've just been pissed off at everything all day.
On Sunday I got to help Carmen with her calculus, which was fun and all. Then I got pulled over for (barely) running a red light, but I got off with a warning. I'm gonna go rewrite my resume so I can get an internship out of this state for the summer. Current Mood: cranky
|Sunday, January 27th, 2002|
It's been a busy week. Yesterday some of my friends from school and I went out and had a beer cause it was such a shitty week. Then I went to a punk show with Michelle. It was a really good time. Her little brother is only 14 and he's the lead singer and guitarist for this incredible local band. Then we watched Mall Rats.... such a good movie. Anyway, it was fun, but she needs to stop insisting that she's boring, cause she's not.
Today I slept in and watched the Avalanche beat the LA Kings. Then I went to dinner at the Black Eye Pea. We also went and saw Black Hawk Down. It's a very powerful movie. Tomorrow I'm gonna go take pictures with Carmen and then do some homework... yay! Current Mood: tired
|Monday, January 21st, 2002|
I'm so tired. It's been a busy weekend. Saturday I went out with Carmen and taught her how to use her camera. I had a lot of fun, but I don't really feel like talking about it. Things are more fucked up and complicated. After hanging out with Carmen I decided to watch SLC Punk with the commentary on. I'm such a dork, in fact the director made some remark about how much of a loser a person would have to be to actually listen to all the commentary. Well I thought it was pretty interesting... I love that movie. Anyway, then I went down to Colorado Springs with my friend Derek. We hung out at his friend's place and wrote some songs and just played around with our guitars for most of the night. Then this morning we went out to breakfast with Derek's family and drove back so I could do homework... yipee! Tomorrow I'm gonna go buy some new pants. Current Mood: tired
|Saturday, January 19th, 2002|
No more Best Buy! Tonight was my last night... woo hoo! I also bought a 500 dollar stereo system. I had to use my discount one last time. I'm definitely gonna miss a lot of people there. But I figure I can go back from time to time. Tomorrow I get to teach Carmen to use her new camera. We'll see how that works out. Current Mood: pleased
|Tuesday, January 15th, 2002|
Going back to school sucks. I don't think my classes are going to suck too bad. My humanities class is gonna suck though. Mostly cause this guy named Barry. I fucking hate this kid and I just met him today. He has something to say about everything and he disagrees with people just to disagree. I spent half an hour arguing with him about Plato's "The Republic". He's just a pain in the ass. I'm also pissed cause he is a suck up and the teacher thinks he is so great. It sounds like I'm in middle school or something... maybe it won't be that bad.
So I hung out with Carmen for quite a while today. I helped her pick out a camera. I had a really good time. Current Mood: content
|Monday, January 14th, 2002|
All my classes start tomorrow. I'm not very excited. Today I had my first day of being a teacher's assistant. It seems likes it's gonna be pretty cool and I'll make some good money. You know what else was really exciting... I got a new parking pass today... woo hoo.
So I went and saw Vanilla Sky again with this girl I met at a new years party. The movie wasn't any better the second time, but she's a really cool girl. The problem is she goes to a different school an hour away so it's not getting excited. Nothing ever works out right. Current Mood: anxious
|Sunday, January 13th, 2002|
Stupid excite.com... So they completely lost my snowgoon account. Every time I email them about it they send me some stupid automatic response. So, I have a new email address. It's firstname.lastname@example.org. So if for some inexplicable reason you want to send me an email send it to that address and if you sent me an email to email@example.com in the past three weeks I didn't get it and I never will.
|Saturday, January 12th, 2002|
I put in my two weeks notice at Best Buy today. I'm so glad to get out of there. I now get to be a TA for the freshman engineering projects class. Which should be really cool and easy. I enjoyed telling Best Buy I was quitting way too much. Watching them squirm and beg me to stay... bwahahahaha. Now I'm gonna go.... do nothing at all. Current Mood: frustrated
|Thursday, January 10th, 2002|
So today was the absolute worst day of work I've ever had. I was one jackass customer away from starting a homicidal rampage. I don't really want to talk about it.
I'm so sick of relationships not working out. I'm so tired of being alone. I'm so tired of meeting the wrong girls. I wish at least one relationship would work so I might be able to stop worrying about what's wrong with me. Unfortunately there is something wrong with me... there is no way I'm so unlucky to have such a streak of failure as long as I've had. DAMMIT!!! Current Mood: stressed
So I think I'm gonna quit working at Best Buy soon. I'm tired of not getting much money for a time consuming and stressful job. I'm trying to be a TA for the freshman engineering projects class. I only have to work 6 hours a week, but I get paid for 10. Plus the job is on campus so I won't have to drive to Broomfield everyday. Current Mood: blah
|Tuesday, January 8th, 2002|
"today was a good day. I didn't even have to use my a.k. at least I didn't get my heart broken anyway"
I wish just for one day life could be simple, but I guess that never happens for anyone. So as for how things are going with Carmen... it's not simple. I haven't seen her for over a week. I called her and she seemed like she was putting me off. I didn't understand why. I called her again on Friday when I got back from Grand Junction. It was a really short conversation and she said she had to go, but that she'd call me back. She didn't call me back... so I called her on Sunday, but she didn't answer her phone and I left her a message. She didn't call me back all day. I pretty much gave up on her and figured it was just one more of my bad experiences with girls. Anyway, this morning I was just about to get up to go to work and she called. She said she was really sorry she didn't call and she said she was coming down to Boulder and she wanted to hang out.... the problem.... I was getting up to go to work. She seemed to be pretty disappointed and told me to call her when I got off, but said she was going out with her friend tonight so we probably weren't going to be able to hang out. So after a shitty day of work I called her. It was a really short conversation and we made plans to hang out on Wednesday. Then it got weird. She called 20 minutes later apologizing for cutting me off so quickly (in the earlier phone call). It was definitely a short conversation, but I didn't really feel she "cut me off". She said she was trying to talk to me and her mom at the same time. Anyway, we talked for a while... I don't understand that girl.
My real problem with the situation is that even if it does work out between us, it doesn't seem like it's going to be a relationship for the right reasons. I don't want to worry about that now, since I don't know her all that well. I'll guess I can deal with that later if it even gets that far.
As for the part of my life that doesn't revolve around girls... I went and saw Amelie again tonight down in Denver. It is such an awesome movie. Everyone should see it... so go see it. I also made a mix tape last night. It's a lot harder than it used to be. Mostly because I have too much music now and it's hard to pick 20 songs out of 3,000. Current Mood: confused
|Saturday, January 5th, 2002|
I hate my brain. It never stops thinking about stupid stuff... especially about girls. I'm tired of thinking about Carmen so I'm not gonna write about it... Anyway, going back to work today sucked. Yet some how I always manage to trick my boss into thinking I do a good job. But I'm gonna quit soon cause doing stuff is hard work. Current Mood: discontent
|Friday, January 4th, 2002|
I just got back from Grand Junction an hour ago. It was good to see my mom. She's looks like she's doing really well... except for the neck brace of course... but she'll be able to take it off soon. We saw Vanilla Sky and Lord of the Rings. I really liked Lord of the Rings... Vanilla Sky was alright. Besides that nothing exciting happened. Current Mood: tired